How great the pain of searing loss

I am currently trying to figure out how to grieve the death of my grandmother in a “godly” way. It’s not easy. In a world where people long to offer pithy words of comfort, I often times feel as though our Christian culture simply wants to cover up our gaping wounds with a band-aid. Lame. I, too, am to blame for this as I have lacked the perspective of a mourner. Until you experience the pain of searing loss yourself, you just cannot simply understand the hazy, gut-wrenching and dark stages of grief.

And somehow, in the midst of my broken heart, God offers a fresh perspective of His own broken heart. Amazing that He can provide comfort and conviction at the same time. Truly only YHWH could do this. When I feel like I will never be whole again, as though a part of my heart has been removed, He promises fulfillment and wholeness once again in His incredible love. He doesn’t replace that person in my heart, rather He fills the cavity that they left with a richer, truer love.

How deep the Father’s love for us,
How vast beyond all measure
That He should give His only Son
To make a wretch His treasure

How great the pain of searing loss,
The Father turns His face away
As wounds which mar the chosen One,
Bring many sons to glory

Behold the Man upon a cross,
My sin upon His shoulders
Ashamed I hear my mocking voice,
Call out among the scoffers

It was my sin that left Him there
Until it was accomplished
His dying breath has brought me life
I know that it is finished

I will not boast in anything
No gifts, no power, no wisdom
But I will boast in Jesus Christ
His death and resurrection

Why should I gain from His reward?
I cannot give an answer
But this I know with all my heart
His wounds have paid my ransom

This entry was published on September 10, 2012 at 12:10 pm. It’s filed under Uncategorized and tagged , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. Follow any comments here with the RSS feed for this post.

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